College in a Month

So beginning of senior year, I was so excited to go to college...Now I'm excited, but I just recieved this $5,900 bill in the mail. People forget to tell you when you go to college not only do have to prepare mentally, but you have to be prepared, physically (health forms), mentally (stress over the physical), and financially (hence the bill). FAFSA wasn't enough you have to back up any claim you make with tax returns and if you have a parent like mine, filling his taxes weren't a priority so bye bye financial aid, hello big bottom loan with like a 19% interest rate that is subject to change because your once responsible co-signer bails. But even after all this you are excited as you hope you can defy the workings of Murphy's Law and find a silver lining to the dark cloud. You are so wrong as you realize that if you have to take out a loan of this magnitude for the next 8 semesters you will successfully be in debt until 2025 and you might be able to start paying it off. The your college of choice has the audacity to as you for more non-existent money and tell you that they are messing your tetanus shot. On top of all this whoop la YOU ARE STILL EXCITED! SO WHAT YOU WILL HAVE TO FILE BANKRUPTCY BEFORE YOU FULLY UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANS COLLEGE WILL BE A BLAST:)

If you could redo the situation you would definitely

*Convince your Dad that filing his taxes ARE IMPORTANT
*Look up more scholarships
*Pick a less expensive college
*Wish you had worked harder in high school for an academic break.

BUT COLLEGE BETTER BE WORTH IT!

This Is It

I forgot I even had a blog. I started this blog at a time when I was very emotional and dealing with a whole bunch of crap. Yep I said the C word. I had drama at home, a boy who went from loving me to playing me, and my interest in school was right below non existent. I now know I have grown, considerably. None of that stuff matters. At the age I am now, I don't care who played me sophomore year and what punishment I got for staying out too late. It no longer matters. I miss my blog though :)

Majestically Created

Majestically Created

Feet so strong, so bold
Attached to lengthy sculpted legs,for 14 years has stood strong.
A delicate behind so soft and round,
To a slim sleek waist, where jeans fit so snug and sound.
These girly hips get some attention,
But a beautiful belly is hard not to mention.
This baby back with its small serene curve
To a pair of shoulders strong with courage.
On either side of two taunt tight breast,
Is where two toned arms come to rest.
Two loving hands, grace they display,
On to a neck where a necklace may lay.
A gorgeous head so valueable and envied,
With sexy lips, a petite nose, and almond shaped eyes it sees.
To mahogany hair that has a mind of its own
It never listens but is always kept combed.
Kudos to the glorious layer that keeps this all in,
Thank God for this ebony skin.
God put this all together for one reason you see.
Every fragment and every unique piece,
Because when its combined just right and descreet,
It created me.



I wrote this a few years ago when I was going through a major ordeal with my mom...she made me feel worthless and I knew I wasn't so I wrote something to prove her wrong. You know what? It kinda helped.

Just a Little Random

What is it about boys that get girls so high strung? I wonder that a lot even though I shouldn't have to.... some things just make you wonder...why is this so hard? I like my blog and the older blogs are my favorite...I just wish I could share them with others....

Parable Of The Pencil

The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box. "There are 5 things you need to know," he told the pencil, "Before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be."

"One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand."

"Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil."

"Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make."

"Four: The most important part of you will always be what's inside."

"And Five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write."

The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.


Now replacing the place of the pencil with you. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.

One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.

Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems, but you'll need it to become a stronger person.

Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.

Four: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.

And Five: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties.

By understanding and remembering, let us proceed with our life on this earth having a meaningful purpose in our heart.

HAV3 YOU 3V3R...?

Have you ever wonder what you would do if you were someone else? Have you ever tried to be that person? no I dont mean just use the same words but you tried to act, dress talk, walk, and if you knew how breath like that person? have you ever tried to just be someone knew just because its Monday? Then you my friend are a random person (or OCD whatever tickles your fancy)...

Sex Before Marriage Sounds like fun!

Sex Before Marriage Sounds like fun! Well It does...But should we do it? As a teenager I hear about sex all the time and sometimes I wonder, and I missing out? Yes I am a virgin but I've been so close to losing my virginity so many times without success. A few months ago I was desperate to lose it to anybody just to know what it felt like. What made me change my mind? I saw my friends relationships with their boyfriends fall apart...the same relationships they swore would last forever. A year to me is no where close to forever...I don't want to feel deserted in a relationship. Is It worth it? I ask myself all the time. In the Bible it says in clear black and white NO SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE....but if its so clearly stated, why is society accepting the fact that we teenagers won't marry as virgins? They say abstinence is the best way to prevent emotional distress and depression, teen pregnancy, and STDs... but so does Serotonin inhibitors (anti depressant) and condoms. If we can easily prevent those problems should we not have sex? I know tons of sex positions I'm dying to try (Classic rear entry,69,riding backwards)...But even with all this being true...Is It right?